Mind Games? No, thanks.

I'll admit it, pretending not to care, just makes it more difficult to not bother about it. And it sure sucks. Won't deny that I'm not just a little upset, rather I'm highly offended, more than slightly affected and pretty mindfucked I'm all geezed out over this. You must be like lolwut, but admitting that I actually give a shit's kinda off my idgaf-about-everything-and-anything attitude k! Feeling like such a loser, especially because I swore to myself to never let this sorta thing bother me!

Quite a handful to multitask I must say; seemingly endless times of hardcore exhausting trng sessions, battling my lethargic and lazy body to study (which has failed miserably) and all these mindgames. Its like building sandcastles and having the high tide wash them all away before completion, repeatedly. Vicious cycle of building false hopes only for them to crumble into a debris of weak, diminishing faith. I am really tired.