Always told myself that yes, I should commit everything into God's hands but God wouldn't be able help me if I didn't help myself. How foolish have I been! It's taken me long enough to realise that God helps those who aren't able to help themselves and commits all things unto Him.

It only struck me today why I never felt so worried throughout Os in the past. I really did tell myself that God would guide me through whatever may be then, and I really don't know where has my faith in God disappeared to after the past two years. I have been a very bitter girl. Bad things happen for a reason. And the reason is to turn you back to God. It just shows how pathetic I am without the Lord if it takes this much for me to realise He should be the main focal point throughout my entire life.

The company I had to pull me through Os really made a difference as well. I wish I could still relieve those times. But all's fine now! I know As is in another 36 hours or so but Jesus will be there to help me so why fret. Amen.