Disappointment.

TODAY I AM MAD. FUMING MAD. Okay, that's an understatement but I can't find a word apt enough to describe the degree of anger and annoyance that is currently building up inside me.

I would very much rather not be a bitch, but really, my heart tells me to ignore the judgemental eyes watching upon this bitch-fight drama and just say what I want to say. It is pointless to just rant on and on within ourselves without actually caring enough to tell you it's high time to do some self-reflection. As hurtful as it might sound I actually mean it as advice (of course, I have to admit; I wanted people to know the existence of such a bitch.) Having a whole new shot at college life but just messing it up all over again, that's simply just pure idiocy. Worse still, through this awful routine of tangling everything into complete chaos, you hurt people. Again, and again. Dyou reckon that only you have emotions while the victims of your nonsense do not? Oh for God's sake, please wake up already. I don't deny that you're nice most of the times, but it's time to actually consider what actually matters, and what do not. Little nice acts can never make up for the mental anguish you've put us through.

I sincerely pray that one day, you'd come to realise where you've gone wrong and start to shoulder the blame which you have been relentlessly trying to push away all this time. Maybe then, things would be less ugly than it is now and the resentment in my heart will abate bit by bit as well. Fingers crossed, I sure hope you'll read this.