Not envious.

Yknow you really shouldn't believe every single thing I say, because I tell many lies. Sometimes its just too difficult to tell you the truth straight in your face.

I might say I'm okay when you ask but I didn't mean it because I'm obviously unhappy with you and c'mon I bet you can tell. I wasn't taking it out on you. I wouldn't be that affected by her behaviour when its already expected from her all these while. Because i'm not happy with you I got all annoyed easily. Like hello, you've been treating me like your last minute backup plan long enough. The whole world is asking me why I'm still so nice to you when you literally ditched me when there was no training.

Also, fyi I am definitely not envious that you're attached etc all right, like what the hell is wrong with your brain you think I don't know what you're trying to do when all you do is talk about him, scribble his name everywhere what not. You don't need to deny okay, go ask anyone- they'll tell you how blatant you've been trying to do that from the beginning of the year. From the time when guys were interested in you and whatnot, dyou really have to go round telling the whole world about it? I think not.

I'm not sure if you're happy with yourself for having so many people wooing you/having a boyfriend but just so you know, its not as if the rest of us are deprived of that, we just don't see the need to go telling everybody. I mean I'm not interested okay; not envious, not jealous, not your backup plan.

Sorry but I think its about time to face the fact that if you continue being this way, i can always confront you straight in your face though I really don't want things to become that ugly. Dyou feel that terrible of yourself that you have to do such a thing to make you feel better of yourself???