It really isn't easy.

Why is it that you think i'm disturbed instead of being upset and hurt? Ever thought that maybe I've really tried in my own ways bits by bits, but you just don't see it? I hate how you're like an open book to me but you don't seem to understand me at all. It feels awful to hear Julia Sheer sing; deafened by your silence, blinded by the tears, if youre looking for forgiveness you wont find it here. And Tyler Hilton sing; you ain't nothing without me. Your tweets are still stuck in my head.

I'm sorry for appearing like I don't give a shit about all this and not showing how I feel exactly. I'm sorry I'm the kind of person who'd rather be misunderstood than to clarify every single detail because I simply do not think it matters what others may think. I'm sorry I let my mind rule over my actions before my heart does, which is why I made that sudden decision months back after giving you false hopes because this will just lead to more hurt. I'm sorry I have issues with trusting people and the several few I trust wholeheartedly now are friends whom have stood by me through so much more than what we've barely caught a glimpse of. I'm sorry I didn't reply because I really need a break after holding this in for two weeks. What a self-centred mindset huh, you'll definitely be happier without me.





Okay enough about this depressing stuff. As my retarded bestie said, no point spending this- what may be awesome- week being stressing over this. I feel oh so happy and complete with all these awesome people in my life already, they will love me and be here for me when I need them to be.

Met up with Xiuming today! Its been a year since treatment ended and that's how long we've not seen each other. Nevertheless, we still had a great catchup time together (:

Finally had frolick after forgetting to bring my organiser out for the longest time ever. Checked out SCAPE and heheheh photospammed outside the Oschool dance studios. Bet you must be thinking; Beg your pardon? Taking spastic photos outside the cool dance studios with a amazing bunch of breakdancers in their hot Nike dunks?? Why aren't you feeling embarrassed at all!

Well, we don't care cause we like to do whatever we like and Xiuming wants to go back on Friday to dance outside where there're dancers practising as well. Yes, you heard me right, heheheh I cannot wait! Friday baby, come to momma!



Typed this post on Tuesday past midnight- so technically speaking Wednesday morning, but I didn't have the courage to post it up. But yknow what, I just turned seventeen, its 3.46am, I need my sleep and I don't wana care no more so damn this. I can't believe I'm stressing over this when you're never gonna read it.

Fuck this, and goodnight.
(Dear God, I'm sorry I promise I won't curse anymore after this.)