It sucks when whatever I do, I do to prove people wrong, yet not to prove myself right.
It sucks having to witness all this conflict shit when it doesn't involve me, but affects me really badly.
It sucks to keep all this within, to refrain from confronting you all, to feel so unhappy somewhere I really want to enjoy myself at.
It sucks when studying makes no more sense when I'm so mentally drained and I really don't understand why the heck am I in jc.
It sucks to recall the disbelief splashed all over your face and the sarcastic comments you gave after you saw my rank points.
It sucks having to control myself from clicking onto the delete button cause I know I'll regret it.
It sucks how you surface in my mind, literally all the time.
It sucks even more when I want to start studying, my heat rash starts to itch, facebook grabs my attention, my rubber band snaps and I just stuff a pencil into my hair to keep it up.


I really want to say that life's enjoyable enough with the bits of fun with the CFs and Alex and Wina and Iggy and others, but right now I can't.
Really trying, but I'm at such a loss.
Pathetically sympathetic.